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I did not even remember when was my last nightmare till just now. It really got the side of me that I was trying to hide to people. Grandpa pass away...I was the closest one to him after my daddy I think. cuz he used to spoiled me a lot when I was little. However, I never cry in front of nobody from the time I heard he pass away till now. I dreamed of him just a feel mins ago. He was still alive in my dream and take care of me like long time ago. He never trust any religion and never use incence sticks. However, in the dream he said to me that I need to take care of myself, health and school, etc and he wanna put incence sticks in front of my bed (to pray for good luck i guess) but the ashes get on my bed and things start burning a lil. After he done, I want to take them down cuz I dun wanna have my house burnt. But end up i burnt myself with the incence sticks...

The nitemare of this is not about scaring to see my bed burnt, not about seeing a dead person alive in it. It just made me really emotional cuz it reminds me the old times and how gentle my grandfather is. Recently (before he pass away) he's suffer from diseases and can't eat alot things. I wish I could be around to help him thru...I thought I was still able to see him Christmas this year. But I guess I won't have the chance now. Grandpa...I miss you

該前進還是放棄
就連 幻想 都快要失去勇氣
我以為只要一直找尋 就會等到愛情
原來有些事 就算不服氣
怎麼勉強都不可以...